Lessons

As I grow older, and (at least I think so) wiser, I realize how much God truly wants me to succeed. Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. I say that because I am completely blessed beyond measure and I take my life and everything in it for granted way too often. I often feel as if I have a loose grip on my life and one more move could send it all in every which direction, and yesterday it happened. Mind you, this is going to sound not that bad (because it isn't-one day removed).

I didn't feel well, I was tired from dealing with the puppy, I felt like I was failing every class, things were going wrong at my internship, I missed Michael like crazy, I was studying for a test I should've started studying for way earlier (story of my life), I felt alone, lost and not in control of anything. Then I saw that Harper had broke her front canine tooth off. I lost it! After my ordeal with my internship (I can be a tad irresponsible and it really came back to bite me yesterday) and I had sat in class and cried, I just broke down. So many of my internal issues come from myself, which drives me more crazy because a lot of them can be easily avoided (i.e. read for class, go to class, don't tell someone you can do something when you can't). I went to bed feeling so defeated. I read in Psalms (which always pulls me out of anything I'm going through) and vowed I would wake with a different attitude. I am a very positive person, but doing a long distance relationship has really put that to the test.

Today has been completely wonderful, although nothing great happened-I actually had to emergency take Harper to the vet, I thought she wasn't breathing, they thought she had a hole in her heart and it turns out she has reverse sneeze- whatever that is- I had a French test that I was late to because I talked to my boss at work for too long about how I need to change some things, and almost got into a very bad wreck.

But I have been so uplifted and positive all day long because I put God first today. No matter what happened today, the Lord assured me it would be ok, and that I would be ok.

God is on our team, and only wants great things for us. 

Days like yesterday and today remind me that if you put God first, he will look after you. We are so incredibly blessed that we serve a God who is on OUR team. 

*I have also decided not to beat myself up if I don't post every day. So I'm going to just post when I feel like it! I still am catching up on all of your lives daily, of coure!